For those who hate girls rambling on about their boyfriends then you cant just skip this entry, because that's probably what it's mostly going to consist of.
Saturday morning (11th August) I woke up quite calm actually, but then as I started to put my make-up on and realised I was not having a good make-up day the nerves seemed to set in, also knowing that Jamie had to make three train changes. I was already feeling nervous for him - encase he got the wrong train and ended up in tĭm-bŭk'tū or something.
When I was finally ready, Jamie had sent me a text that he had arrived where I needed to meet up with him but my dad decided to be awkward and faff about in the house for a while. Finally in the Landrover (big fat white embarrassing square tin) my dad starts driving, then he stops off at a shop and spends five minutes looking around, and there's me getting even more nervous by the second. When he finally does come back he has nothing,
nothing, in his hands, I nearly snapped at him for being such a drip and not driving me too the bloody station in time.
Back to driving to the station, my dad tells me to text Jamie to meet up in the car park and just get in the Landrover, so I text him this with several thousand mistakes because my fingers decide to not function. How romantic? Then I see him sitting on the grass next to the car park, my sudden instinct just to
hide, but too late he's inside of the Landrover with a freak of a girlfriend squirming about, giggling, not even looking at him. Cant really remember much of the drive apart from Jamie keep staring at me as if I am some interesting experiment gone wrong.
We get out of the Landrover outside my house, and Jamie hugs me, I'm like failing at the hug but it still feels nice. I try to get Jamie in my bedroom instantly just to hide him from my parents, but my dad makes us stay downstairs in the dining room because my Mom is having a bath upstairs. To be honest, I really, really cant remember the rest up until my parents telling me they are going out shopping and leaving us alone in the house (woo much?) sitting in the bedroom still slightly nervous but I'm OK with him now but I keep acting like a blabbering idiot and saying "You're actually here? =o" in which he responded "Am I?", pissage takage?
Cant really remember much apart from me being awkward, kept doing stuff on my computer, visa versa. Then we would sit on the blue chair/bed behind my computer, and I would avoid any chance of kissage or anything intimate, but I had not planned on doing it I just kept avoiding the situations naturally etc. Then my parents come back with sandwiches and loads of food for me and Jamie to eat over the weekend, me and Jamie make our way in to the dining room and my mom starts to offer Jamie sandwiches. Egg salad, all day breakface, cheese ploughmans, egg mayonnaise - OK? Why did my mother feel the need to buy sandwiches that make your breath smell? I did not have anything apart from a doughnut and a beer anyway because I had not been eating properly for days and my stomach could only stomach really nice food - he ate a sandwich, forgot which, but when we had finished eating that we went upstairs again and had a few minutes to kill before we had to go to the cinema.
During one of the sit on blue chair moments again Jamie decides to pounce on me and like full on start kissing me, I don't know how it was for him but for me it was pretty scary because it was my first kiss in ages and I was stuck at the bottom with someone desperately kissing me and because I was not relaxing I was doing at shit job, but I stilled enjoyed it never the less. But then we were interrupted by my dad telling us we would be late for the cinema, so I got up and put my skirt back on (taken off because it had been annoying me) and freshened up, then went out the door with Jamie. The weather was hot, but it was nice, bright and sunny, reflecting my mood really XD. Being late I just grabbed his hand and steered him all the way, some moments we slowed down and talked a little, and he blamed the kiss on me hehe.
We bought our tickets for the Simpsons Movie, and got in to some seats at the back on the cinema, and watched the film for about 15 minutes, but there seems to be quite allot of the film missing from my memory, for some reason -whistle-, the walk back was nicer and much more calm and just nice.
To be honest I cant remember much else of the day apart from me being ill from not eating, but I was OK. Jamie fitted my DVD for my computer, and installed UT for me and we tried that out on my computer for a little while. I'm really sorry but my the weekend went so fast that all the details have gone out of my mind and I cant remember when things happened so excuse me if I get any in the wrong order lol. Rest of the day was filled with messing about on the computer, kissage, and nearly being caught doing something by my mother.
On the night at about 1am ish Jamie had to go sleep on the sofa downstairs, but I promptly followed him and tried to get comfortable while we watched some TV but the TV was discarded while me and him decided we had other things on our mind (don't worry, no sex). Was all amazing, and everything went perfect, hence why I am the luckiest girl - and he is such an amazing guy, he's funny, cares for me, just everything about him is perfect.
We went to sleep for about 2 hours on the sofa, but then we both woke up and had the most passionate kiss ever, beats Sawyer and Kate, beats anything actually, it was amazing and we just kept going on and on for about 2 hours - well the kiss lasted about an hour and a half ;). Never felt anything like it before, and it was so real and perfect, no mistakes or anything it was like a perfectly edited film and he really is an amazing kisser, with other talents too... When we finally stopped I turned the light on slightly because I wanted to see how awful I looked. Aha, I nearly laughed out loud with my majorly fluffy sex hair, and my lips were swollen and numb, my bottom lip was red and bruised because Jamie enjoys biting and pulling on it while we are kissing (I do too, sends chills).
So that was the first day, when I woke up at about 6am the next morning I was freezing because I had no cover and I was uncomfortable so I went on to the other sofa and lay there for a while - but that also was uncomfortable, I don't even remember getting in to my bed upstairs but I woke up and heard Jamie walk in to the room and I looked at him and pulled the cover over my head and stretched. I must have looked fucked, and I finally pulled my head out of the cover and leaned over and kissed him with morning breath ^_^.
I spend most of the morning feeling ill and sick with wooping sensations in my chest, and for some reason my hard drive was failing on my computer and I just felt like crying because I felt so ill and I wanted to enjoy the time I had with Jamie. I went and had a long shower, thinking it would make me feel better but it didn't, so I spend about 3 hours moping on my blue chair feeling sick until I finally decided to make myself sick. I begged Jamie not to listen and put music on but he was just stubborn, so I left and made myself sick in the toilet, brushed my tongue, teeth thoroughly and about half an hour later I was back to myself feeling hyper and not ill anymore.
My parents kindly drove us to the pub/restaurant and me and my family had dinner together, it was really nice and my parents seemed to really warm towards Jamie and it just felt so nice. We went outside on the tables while my parents had a cigarette and some air, I decided to start kissing Jamie again =] as you do.
When we got home me and Jamie sat on the sofa together, and I kept making out with him every time my parents went out the room, I was in a silly mood and I love to kiss him anyway. I kept teasing him and doing other things too. My Mom came in and put Alien on, and me, Jamie, my dad, and my mom was sitting in my living room watching it, I had my legs on his as I was lying down. Unfortunately I kept getting itches and figgiting but apart from that it was one of those "nice" perfect moments again =]
When the film finished Jamie had to go home =[ which was too sudden for me and I just felt dumbstruck, when he was meant to be gathering all his stuff up and getting ready me and him decided to start making out on the blue chair again, but I felt really sad too, it was a goodbye in actions rather than words, but it still felt amazing. We were interrupted again by my dad asking me if we are ready yet, so Jamie got ready and we both got in to the Landrover. I kept looking at him, and I could not say anything to him, I wanted to say something though and I just sat quiet while my dad drove us to the meeting point where Jamie would get picked up. We were there, and I thought Jamie would just give me a quick peck, but it was a proper kiss goodbye although it was short.
All the way home I just felt gutted, and had this feeling in my chest that I'd never had before in my life, we would talk to each other on MSN again but I still felt like somehow it was the final goodbye. I think I should be given an award for how well I stopped myself from bursting in to tears, it was so damn hard, and they were not normal sad tears but they were a mixture of happiness because I've found the most perfect guy in the world, but sadness because he could not be in my arms all the time.
My web cam does him no justice, I've bagged myself a hottie XD
dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
and, dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
i can't keep pretending that i don't even know you
and at sweet night you are my own
take my hand...
we're leaving here tonight
there's no need to tell anyone
they'd only hold us down
so by the morning's light
we'll be half way to anywhere
where love is more than just your name
i have dreamt of a place for you and i
no one knows who we are there
all i want is to give my life only to you
i've dreamt so long, i cannot dream anymore
let's run away...i'll take you there
we're leaving here tonight
there's no need to tell anyone
they'd only hold us down
so by the morning's light
we'll be half way to anywhere
where no one needs a reason
forget this life
come with me
don't look back, you're safe now
unlock your heart
drop your guard
no one's left to stop you now
we're leaving here tonight
there's no need to tell anyone
they'd only hold us down
so by the morning's light
we'll be half way to anywhere
where love is more than just your name
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